The brighter I shine, the darker my shadow...

It's been a while.

Sorry I haven't posted much lately, not a lot has been happening I guess... okay, that's a lie, I've just been too lazy to post. The week before last was Metal in March and the summer-themed dance at my school. Both were a lot of fun, but since they were within two days of each other, I was awful tired the weekend following. The dance was Thursday and the show was Saturday. I had a very long sleep Saturday night and ended up only getting up at 1PM (which I thought was noon, but the stupid time change screwed me up), which was kind of disappointing. I hate sleeping in for that late, I feel like I've wasted the whole day away and half the weekend is gone. I woke up at 1PM on Sunday, so I didn't get to sleep that night until about 2AM, only to wake up five hours later to go to school. This past week was a tired one.

In more recent news, my parents have gone on vacation by themselves for the first time since before I was born (15 years, give or take), so my aunt Kelli is staying here with me and my siblings. (She's actually the one who inspired me to have a blog in the first place.) She loves to cook, so we've been eating like kings all this weekend. Last night it was salmon stuffed with mushrooms and shrimp with asparagus, brussel sprouts and rice with a creamy sauce I forgot the name of. It was AMAZING, and tonight we're having a full out turkey dinner. Yeah, she really doesn't half-ass the whole cooking thing, which is something our family isn't used to because my mom doesn't like to cook and my dad usually doesn't want to after work.

Also, the new Sobeys opened in my town, and its within walking distance of my house. Now, mom will never have an excuse for not getting groceries! Muahahaha!... *cough* So that's cool. Me and my siblings will never walk to Needs again.

Also, what the hell is a "brouhaha"? When I type muahahaha, I right click it and it's one of the spelling suggestions. And, Spell Check doesn't recognize "brussel" in brussel sprouts. WTF Spell Check? Did you suddenly become retarded?

Yours truly,

- Lexi

Days without Kelsey: 25 (Less than two weeks left!!!)
Music: I'll Make It To The Brigades - Lovehatehero

But my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles...

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So I was thinking the other day about how I'm easy to please. I live such a... different lifestyle. My outfits never look the same. I'm just as happy in blue jeans and cowboy boots as I am in cargo pants and a couple of tank tops, as I am in skinny jeans and a band tee with one of my four pairs of Converse. I'm just as happy listening to metal heavy enough to shake your rafters, as I am to kick back to some slow country ballad, as I am dancing my heart out to some sugar-pop radio hit.

I love all kinds of food, with only a few on a list of things I will not eat. I love the sunshine in summer and the snow in winter. I love the smell of spring and the colors of fall. I love black and white, with an adoration for colors. I'll shop at West 49, D-Tox and Stitches all in the same day. I can appreciate fine arts like those of Leonardo DiVinci and Amadeus Mozart just as I can appreciate the technical qualities of Alex Grey's artwork and Silverstein's latest single.

I'm full of great ideas and horrible ideas that never take form, and a couple that do make it to existence. I'll take on a school project in a creative form or a traditional one. I love to sing, cook, draw, act, and I find martial arts endlessly interesting. I love art. I love... lots of things. There aren't a huge number of things I abhor, and those things are almost always qualities in people. I really easy to please lately. I think maybe that's why I'm so much happier...

I guess I bounced back from my pit-of-despair-type-thing. Just a thought. <3

Yours truly,

- Lexi

Days without Kelsey: 9
Music: Walk (covered) - Avenged Sevenfold, original by Pantera.

FML.

So.

I'm smack dab in the middle of March break, and what have I done? Almost nothing. Ryan's gone to Halifax now, and he's coming back on Thursday. Kelsey's not here still, obviously. I feel useless. I feel lazy. I kinda feel pissed off, actually. I just wanna feel USEFUL. If there's one thing I can't stand it's not being useful. I slept in until 2PM today to boot, because I stayed up until 2:30AM last night finishing an anime series I was watching online. I'M JUST SCREAMING 'PATHETIC', HERE.

Guhh. I need out of this house, I need the company of other teenagers... we are pack animals, you know. Me and my family are going out for supper tonight, so I guess that'll be nice. I hope I'm in a better mood by then. I'm feeling the effects of being over tired, when really, I just slept TOO much, which is usually worse for me. I'm easily frustrated and I've been on a hair trigger all day. I feel mad but I don't know why I am. Fuck, I'd better feel better tomorrow, or someone in this household is going to lose their head (probably my dad or younger sister).

To boot, my cell phone is permanently last, I think. I haven't found it. I'm rather upset... I mean, I've racked up a bunch of "MyRewards Credits" so i have 100 dollars towards buying a new phone already... but I liked my Slyde. It was my baby sand I lost it. But I feel so naked without a cell phone. It sucks. I think me and my mom are going to get me a new cell phone sometime in the coming days.

I know this entire post has just been me complaining, but I don't have anything else to say. I'm sorry.

Yours angrily,

- Lexi

Days without Kelsey: 6
Music: I Don't Care - Fall Out Boy