Good day!
Yesterday, I went to my first horseback riding lesson in four years. Four years... I hadn't realized it before, but it's really been that long since I was on a horse. Being at the barn with Larry, and even seeing Dusty the old dog... it was all so nostalgic, and wonderful.
My sister, mother and I all went in the morning towards 9:30 for the lesson at 10. We stopped at Tim's and got coffee etc. for everyone... and off we went. As soon as we pulled in the long driveway, Dusty started barking and running like there was no tomorrow. He ran up and greeted the van, then trotted along beside us until we parked. Jillian had her lesson with Larry first, and I enjoyed my cafe mocha... then, it was my turn. Wearing my red grad hoodie and Katie's old riding boots, I was about to really ride for the first time in four years.
I hadn't expected to be so excited, but I really was. I got on and off the horse all by myself, something I couldn't do before. I rode completely by myself. I had control... something I always lacked before, simply because at ten years old, I didn't have enough strength to properly tell the animal what I wanted him to do. Speaking of the animal, his name is Sullivan (or Sully). He's my cousin Katie's horse, and he's staying with Larry (a big name in all things equestrian around here) for training and such. He's a big chestnut gelding, he'll be 11 years old next Saint Patty's day.
Needless to really point out further, the lesson was amazing. Everything seemed perfect. It wasn't too warm or too cold outside, with a clear blue sky and a pleasant light breeze. i honestly couldn't have pictured it going any better than it did. Jillian was just beaming when she got off of Sully, she had been on a lead line. And afterward, I was too. I much look forward to regular lessons every Saturday at 10, now.
Yeah, that's the only thing that's bee going on lately... except Derrick is coming back to Riverview today! I can't wait to see him, I missed him so much. I gotta enjoy my last three weeks with him as much as I can, it's all we've got left.
Yours truly,
- Lexi
Music: The City is at War - Cobra Starship
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Long time no update.
Ahh, hello there Blogger. So sorry I haven't been around lately!
I've been out almost everyday, doing whatever with the guys... walking, watching movies, swimming and going to Magic Mountain, and being general teenagers. Everything seemed great until two nights ago, Monday night, when Derrick told me something I never wanted to hear. He's not staying, after summer is over... he had said he might be.
I won't lie, I feel heartbroken and devastated. I wanted him to stay, and go to RHS with me SO bad... and, now, that hope is just gone. My heart kind of stopped that night, and it's gonna take a while before it starts beating again. Meanwhile, things between Derrick and I are really rough. It's because I can't help but act so cold to him, after he told me he wasn't staying. I wanted that more than anything, right now. And, when I'm hurt like this, this is what I do... I curl up in a ball kind of, and just vent resentfulness to whoever did this to me. I know it's not Derrick's fault, he really did have to go back, to his brother and his family... but that doesn't change how upset I was, and still am. I cried non-stop that night... but then I talked to Daniel.
Daniel, Derrick's brother, told me that I had to try to be happy for Derrick. He said that he doesn't want to see me hurt, and that it was the hardest thing Derrick had ever done. So, I'm going to try to appreciate that, and put my own sour feelings behind me. I don't know how exactly I'm going to do that... but I have to try. It might be a little easier because Derrick isn't around right now. He's in Truro for his brother's birthday, which is today.
I really, really hope we can get through this. I don't want to lose him. And I think... no, I know, that we can get through another year. We will see our anniversary, and then our second. I love him, and that's all I need.
Yours truly,
- Lexi
Music: So Far by ChapterFour (Local band. YouTube it.)
I've been out almost everyday, doing whatever with the guys... walking, watching movies, swimming and going to Magic Mountain, and being general teenagers. Everything seemed great until two nights ago, Monday night, when Derrick told me something I never wanted to hear. He's not staying, after summer is over... he had said he might be.
I won't lie, I feel heartbroken and devastated. I wanted him to stay, and go to RHS with me SO bad... and, now, that hope is just gone. My heart kind of stopped that night, and it's gonna take a while before it starts beating again. Meanwhile, things between Derrick and I are really rough. It's because I can't help but act so cold to him, after he told me he wasn't staying. I wanted that more than anything, right now. And, when I'm hurt like this, this is what I do... I curl up in a ball kind of, and just vent resentfulness to whoever did this to me. I know it's not Derrick's fault, he really did have to go back, to his brother and his family... but that doesn't change how upset I was, and still am. I cried non-stop that night... but then I talked to Daniel.
Daniel, Derrick's brother, told me that I had to try to be happy for Derrick. He said that he doesn't want to see me hurt, and that it was the hardest thing Derrick had ever done. So, I'm going to try to appreciate that, and put my own sour feelings behind me. I don't know how exactly I'm going to do that... but I have to try. It might be a little easier because Derrick isn't around right now. He's in Truro for his brother's birthday, which is today.
I really, really hope we can get through this. I don't want to lose him. And I think... no, I know, that we can get through another year. We will see our anniversary, and then our second. I love him, and that's all I need.
Yours truly,
- Lexi
Music: So Far by ChapterFour (Local band. YouTube it.)
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