Haven`t you heard, baby? I put the "hot" in "psychotic."

Greetings, Internet.

I come bearing good news. Derrick and I are still together, and the last two days have been better. I think we're gonna make it after all. Things are still super rough between us right now, and I have a feeling that they will be that way for a while. But we can push through it. I know we can. We always have before.

I love you, Derrick. Don't you ever forget it.

In other news, I went to see The Twilight Saga: New Moon with Kelsey, my moviegoer buddy, today. It was actually really good. I mean, I bashed the hell out of the first Twilight movie, and really, it wasn't that good. But this one was. I mean, I really wish I could say that I didn't like it and be all non-conformist and all that... but I can't really find anything specific to point out in it. Some of the special effects weren't top notch, but the CGI for the werewolves was really awesome. I also got to see Taylor Lautner shirtless, which was a huge plus. Kelsey was completely googly-eyed over him, which I think is hilarious. I won`t lie to any of you; he is HOT. In Kelsey's wise words: "I'd tap that all night long."

I am totally on Team Jacob, guys. No matter what ends up happening with Bella and Edfag.

Yours truly,

- Lexi

Music: When the Lights Are Down - Kamelot

Some quick facts...

Here we go.

1. It is currently 12:01AM where I am right now and I should be in bed long ago.

2. My lover is taking a painfully long time to decide if he wants to stay my lover or not.

3. He's done this to me three nights in a row now, this being the third.

4. The skin under my eyes actually hurts from crying so much. Literally. My face is sore.

5. Fuck me, I have no idea what to do.

(I know you've got nothing to work with here, but I'll fill you in later.)

6. I'm so tired it's not even funny.


Yours regrettably,

- Alex
(because he never called me Lexi. Just Alex.)

Music: None. That's a first.

It won't help me but I have to ask, is there something real that's behind the mask?

So.
I got banned from Facebook. Yeah. I just went to go check my Honest Box messages on Saturday night, and it wouldn't let me into my account. I thought it was just a bug, and it would resolve itself by morning... the new layout had everything all messed anyway. Well, I tried the next day, and no dice. And now, it's been more than 72 hours. It's not gonna resolve itself.

Now, I know what you're all thinking. You're all thinking, 'oh, she offended someone.' Or 'oh, she had naked pictures on her profile.' Or 'oh, she's a Nazi.' No. I promise all of those things are not true... except perhaps the first one, but if it is true, I really didn't mean it, guys. Sorry.

The only reason I got banned, that I can think of, must have something to do with my big Facebook group I had made. It was called "Gay" is not a synonym for "stupid." I asked Derrick to check his Facebook, to see if my group was still there. It's gone. And then it hit me: the other admin! He's my cousin, and he was the other administrator of the group. I think that if I had been banned and it wasn't for the group, he would have just been the only admin. Derrick pout in his name... he no longer exists on Facebook.

What?

I don't think I had done anything wrong. It must have been because I had banned someone from the group ( There were many - you wouldn't believe some of the ignorance I saw on that group. It was just ridiculous) and they complained of harrassment or something crazy like that. Ugh.

Anyway, I've kind of been mourning the loss of my Facebook account... and I never really noticed until now, but I use it a LOT. I mean, more than I thought I did for sure. It just goes to show how over-stimulated my generation is. Many of my peers constantly need to have something going on, or they just get bored. I can be like that too, but generally I am easily amused. I always thought that was a good quality.

I'll stop ranting now, sorry guys. I don't even know where I'm going with this.

Yours truly,

- Lexi

Music: Lungs Like Gallows by Senses Fail

Calling all cars, we've got another victim; cause my love has become an affliction... <3

Pineapple!
I mean, sorry! My saying I'd update more often has not been too fruitful. I apologize for my lack of entries. Not that anyone cares, because no one reads this blog. Oh well. :]

I'm in a good mood right now, blog. This is because I get to see Derrick in just a few hours. It's 5:25 now, and his bus gets here around 8. I haven't seen him for what feels like forever... even though it's only been three months. Heh. It's a good thing I really like that guy. :P

Random thought here.I realized something today. You know the phrase LMAO, as in "laughing my ass off"? When you say it, it pronounces like "el em ay oh", right? Well if you say it fast, to me, it sounds like "elle aime mayo", which is french for "she likes mayonaise". I don't know, just something I thought I should share that moment of pointless thought with you guys.
LMAO = she likes mayonaise.

Damn, there was one other thing I was supposed to write in here but I don't remember what it was. Oh well.

Yours truly,

- Lexi

Music: The City Sleeps In Flames - Scary Kids Scaring Kids