It's mid-afternoon, no one is online to talk to, and it's drizzling outside. I'm terribly bored, so blogger, I turn to you.
I have no idea what I should write about, seeing as the most interesting thing that's happened yet today was me making rice for lunch and reading a Woman's Home Journal magazine. I wonder why my mom is even subscribed. She never reads magazines... and when she does, it's Soap Opera Digest that she buys at Super Store, anyway.
So, am I doomed to rot away in my room on this dreary summer afternoon? it appears so. normally, when I feel like this, I go for a walk. But I don't want to get caught in heavy rain if I do... blehh. This is the worst kind of weather. I'd rather it just downpour all day than stay like this. At least then, it's over when it's over. But this drags on for days, sometimes weeks at a time.
It reminds me of when I was in Mexico earlier this year. Oh right, I never explained that. Well, long story short, I went on a student exchange program with my school to stay with a family in Mexico City for two weeks, along with about 18 other kids from Riverview Middle and Riverview High. I didn't actually have that great a time, because of a few varying factors... but really, because I let Anna know something I shouldn't have, and it's something that near ruined the trip. At least I had the experience of seeing some ancient ruins, magnificent museums, and absorbing a bit of a third language.
The reason it makes me think of there is because it NEVER rains there! Every single say, for the two weeks I stayed, there wasn't a cloud in the sky! it was always sunny,hot, and clear. I mean, I went in late February/early March, and the weather was like the summer weather in Canada, except no rain. I think it's one of the parts I miss the most about it... that, and the food.
It's really kinda sad when you think about it. I went to have a great time, and make a "best friend for life". Anna, the girl who kept me... I'm pretty sure she hated me, or at least found me annoying. She treated me like I barely existed, and spoke in constant rapid Spanish to her friends, when she knew I couldn't understand and she was plenty fluent in English. The experience was not all I expected it to me... and I was the only one who felt that way. Everyone else had a wonderful time and made new friends and such... and I was kind of forgotten. Even when the Mexican students came to stay with us a few weeks later, I didn't get an exchange student.
But the worst of it all? The whole reason I didn't have a good time really, and that little bit of info I told Anna... I can't tell me parents how I feel and why. To them, it was just kind of like "Oh, well Anna and Alex just didn't mesh very well." That's true too, but the real reason, I have to hide. They don't know something about me yet, and I told Anna, and she freaked out, and... oh, it was just horrible. It was a bit of a wake-up call to how cruel people can be sometimes, and how afraid we are of what we don't understand...
Well, I think that's enough basking in painful memories.
And as a side note, I miss Derrick a lot. I want him back already...
Yours truly,
- Lexi
Music: Careless Whisper by Seether
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